Burn Slowly

"Paheli" is one of the best movies I have seen in a long time. Whether or not you like or have seen Bollywood movies, this is not one to miss. It is a love story (of course) that is really sweet, interesting, entertaining, and sexy. One of the best parts of the movie is this song: (If you want to see the movie, skip watching the video and just listen to the music so nothing is ruined for you.)



I adore this song. Burn slowly...

On Again, Off Again

My relationship with this blog is more fickle than a middle school relationship!

But really, we had dial-up interwebs since we moved to the boonies when B got his new job. And I was thrown back into - strangely enough - middle school era super slow net that made me want to punch my computer screen! It took thirty minutes just to just my effing email. So I quit getting online until now, NOW that we have wonderful fast internets again!!! Yay!

So much to tell. Brief glimpse of recent events: moved, love/hate small town, love/hate house rental, looking for house to buy, finished taxes in one day (score), learned to crochet in a day (score twice), B and B funnier/cuter/smarter EVERY day, life insanely good. How the crap did I get so lucky? Didn't know how to be this happy until I was, oh, about 18 years old. Adjusting daily to total bliss. Strange.

Good news is that we now live close to the Bewkuns' grandmom. We visit lots, have tons of fun, and enjoy the benefits of each others' company. I haven't gotten to see very many of my friends that I had hoped to visit now that we are closer again. But we are slowly remedying that.

Ahh, listening to music online, watching Netflix instantly, reading Pajiba obsessively, and rediscovering every site that I had to make myself forget has been like rediscovering your favourite gift all over again. I love living in this time. The internet, so so so good. If you know how to use it.

See you again soon little blog! Haha!

Relief, Shock, Yes

What a gooood day.

Ahhh.

Thirteen-Year-Old Seth Rogen

This is kinda amazingly adorable and good for a thirteen year old! Seth Rogen does stand-up.

I Need to Watch This Again...

And maybe the edited for TV version for extra hilarity!

The Best Television EVAR!!!

AAAaaaaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! Thanks for the link, husband! Funniest video I have seen in a long time!!!

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End of the World

Am alive... with teeth throbbing.

Celebratory comic !!!!! Have you ever seen xkcd.com? If not, funny all the time. Cheggit.

O no

I am getting three of my four wisdom teeth out tomorrow after years worth of intermittent pain as they have erupted.

Despite not being a worrier by habit, I am really nervous about tomorrow. It will be the first surgery I have ever had, and although it is fairly minor, it's still surgery! I worry more because I have SVT, a mostly straightforward heart condition that just means my heart gets off beat sometimes. My dentist knows about it and has dealt with it before. I believe they will even be prepared with meds in case I need them. However, the strange and gloomy spectre of death lurks at the back of my mind... especially since I am a parent now. Yes, yes, there is such a miniscule chance of anything even seriously detrimental to my health happening that this worry may seem extreme to you. Indeed, I laugh at my fear half the time. It's just a combination of what I would consider mental hurdles for me: never having been to the doctor much, never having had surgery, being a parent (and all, all, ALL that entails), and having lost enough people to be aware of/fear everyone's mortality including my own.


Oh yeah, and it kinda pisses me off that I will be losing an entire day of my life to sedation! What a waste!

Eh, I'll be fine.

Wait, wait!!!

I need a Shittiest President in the History of the United Stated Montage!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Just so you know, I am "singing" the "I need a..." part because it is from some movie or show and I can't remember which one. Will post it as soon as I find it. Brandon, what movie is this song from so that I can post it and not sound like a dumbass?!)

I Need An Inspirational Speech Montage!

Hahaha, yes!!! Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Oh, And!

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die

My Own NaNoWriMo

Really fast, cuz I wanna go play Sims 2 with limited free time: I didn't end up finishing... or really doing much of NaNoWriMo due to many many circumstances but largely because of depression. I feel like I am coming out of it now and really want to finish NaNo. SO, I have decided to have my OWN National Novel Writing Month in January! Brandon and I were laughing about how strange it is to have NaNo in November when it seems the holiday season is just picking up and the sickness season is beginning and everyone is busy. And why on earth do they not have it in a more boring month, like, say, January or March or really almost any month in the beginning of the year?!

I was going to do it in December but realized I wanted to relax and enjoy my Christmas without the stress. So January it is. I'll try to keep a running word count on here. A little disappointed... or a lot.... that I didn't get the award screen and possibly even t-shirt from finishing in November.... but oh well. Anywho, hope it works in a month.

Critters

I am thinking it is time for a pet! Bowen is at an age that he knows when to be gentle and listens to my instructions pretty well. Winter is coming and we are going to be cooped up indoors, in need of some extra fun and activity. He has been asking sweetly for a puppy dog for a long time, but we can't get one for many reasons. Most importantly, I don't want to coop up a dog, too. Most need lots of room to move, run, explore, and we can't offer that in a little apartment. Also, as I mentioned, winter is coming, and we would have to walk it outside in the cold alllll the time. Especially to let it go potty. I have heard you can litter box train dogs, but I think with a toddler who I am already trying to potty train I don't want to be doing the same for another living thing!


So, I have read a few articles and thought about solutions and have concluded we may get a guinea pig or a rat! Both are very friendly, become loyal and loving to their owners, like to be held and petted, don't usually bite unless provoked (unlike hamsters and gerbils), and are appropriately small for the size of our living quarters. A few drawbacks: cleaning cages when I have a lot to clean already, buying cages, toys, food, etc., rats are highly social and need other ratty companions which would require buying more than one, need to rat/guinea pig-proof the areas of the house we are going to play in, space needed for cage in already cramped quarters, eventual death of said pet resulting in toddler sadness.


Anywho, thoughts are much appreciated if anyone has anything to add! I really want a pet because they bring so much joy! I know Bowen and I would have fun with some small furry creatures!!! I think, first, though, I might take Bowen to the pet store and see if he can really handle it well.

If...

I would love to be a professional dancer; a serious, multi-style, classically trained dancer... and I may have possibly pursued this dream.......

.....if I did not have boobs the size of Alaska!!!!

LOL!

Ggggggggggggah!

I am wimping out. Big time.

I feel like I have some huge invisible wall standing between me and my ability to just open up my damn word document and write my NaNoWriMo novel. I have 4,000 words. I already started. Why can't I write any more?! Why the crap don't I believe I can do it?!?! I have half the story mapped out! What is wrong with me?!?!?!?!

Is it really that I am tired? Because I am, all the time, all year round. I can't remember the last time I regularly got enough sleep. That shouldn't stop me.

Is it that I am so starved for free time that I view even my recreational writing as work now?! Am I so socially isolated that the few hours of surfing the interwebs makes me feel more connected and when I don't get even that I feel completely locked inside my own head? Especially when my free time in spent in an even more introspective, self-contained, imaginary world???

I think..... yes, yes to some degree to all of this. And so many more stupid things getting in my way. I gotta do it. Even if I don't make the 50,000 word goal.

Oh, Happy Day!

This is how I feel, like a kid on Christmas morning!

Waking up today was like waking up on Christmas morning!!!

Like Amanda said to me, I was slightly anxious, just wanting to make sure that last night really happened. Brandon and I sat and watched t.v. for a couple minutes, making sure nothing had changed and all was well. It was such a relief to see all the happy faces and celebrating people on lots of stations.

It feels like such a GOOD DAY!!! I am overjoyed and hopeful. I have no illusions; I have never believed the President of the United States to be so all-powerful that s/he could bend the country to their will, but I know that things will get better. We have a long hard fight ahead of us. There are many things to repair and many more to change. But we have taken a step in the right direction. There will be many more small steps, many setbacks, but I feel the massive support for Barack Obama has been reflective of our collective desire to move forward.

My heart almost bursts. I cannot say how proud I am now to be able to teach my children that there are NO LIMITS. I am so proud to have watched the first African-American President be elected!!!!!!! We are still struggling to overcome our history of hatred and violence and prejudice in the United States, but we are making progress. Bowen may not remember last night, but I will be able to tell him and any of my other children all about it. And they will not grow up taking for granted the fact that only old, white men can be the leader of this country. There is so much more filling my mind and heart; maybe I can write down a lot of the details of this whole election so that I can share it with my kids when they grow up and ask me about Barack Obama winning in 2008. Oh, joy!

Small moves, Ellie. Small moves. - Contact

Presidential Election 2008

I am nearly speechless! I just wanna say:

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! President Obama!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More later.

NaNoWriMo 2008

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am starting to get really excited! Nation Novel Writing Month is coming up again this year and I am really gearing up!!!!!!!! I am really hoping to make the goal of 50,000 words this year! I know I can do it if I just stick with it. No quitting out of despair this year! lol.

I looked back at some of my novel info from last year and was shocked to find that I had made 30,000 words. It kinda gave me a kick in the pants, enabling me to realize that I can really make the word goal this time around. I have a couple of plans that will help me make the word count every day.

Oddly enough, I'm not sure I want to write the story that I have been outlining in prep for this year! I chose not to do this particular story for NaNo last year because I felt I wanted to really do it justice instead of banging out 50,000 words in the frantic and less skillful way that it necessary when trying to make your goal. And I had not yet figured out enough of the story by November 1st last year to really write about it.

This year I have been outliging, have a lot of great ideas, but am still unsure for a number of reasons. Maybe I will write something else that will come more easily to me? Something that I do not have to create an entire, rich universe from scratch? Something that I have less invested in, that I can butcher for word count and writing experience only???

Eh, we'll see. Regardless, I am psyched! Hopefully no one will get sick this year and Thanksgiving will be a casual affair! Wish me luck!!!!!

Buuuut, Birthday!

Mostly for myself, since I have a terrible memory, I want to write down the details of our birthday celebrations!

Bowen and I went to the nearby park after dropping Brandon off for work. But for one strange incident with a possible homeless/crazy guy trying to talk to Bowen and me, we had a fun and safe time there. We had a pretty typical day consisting of our routine, eating, playing, napping.

Initially I was worried that Brandon and I would not get to spend much time together on my birthday because he had to work extra hours on Friday (all due to the aforementioned sickness earlier in the week which he took off for). However, he got to leave work an hour early because his usual staff meeting was canceled. Bowen and I went to pick him up and then we had a really good evening.

We stopped to rent some movies. I know it sounds funny, but I am a really eclectic movie lover, and I was wanting to have a Lethal Weapon movie marathon! I had only recently seen the first one all the way through and wanted to see the rest! Brandon looked at me during dinner - which we had picked up from out local favourite steak house - and said "Do you know how awesome it is to have a wife who wants to have a Lethal Weapon marathon on her BIRTHDAY?!"


LOL.

Like I said, we got some really yummy food and ate it at home while watching our movies. Then, we hung out all night and finished our movie marathon with some popcorn and drinks after Bowen went to bed. It was such a nice, fun, relaxing day. Thanks Brandon, you made it wonderful!!!

And Brandon is still going to take me to Macaroni Grill for my birthday because we wanted to go on a weekday. We were going to go today, but all got sick. So, as soon as we all feel better, we are going to have a big blowout for Bowen and me. Mmmm, tiramisu!!!