My Own NaNoWriMo

Really fast, cuz I wanna go play Sims 2 with limited free time: I didn't end up finishing... or really doing much of NaNoWriMo due to many many circumstances but largely because of depression. I feel like I am coming out of it now and really want to finish NaNo. SO, I have decided to have my OWN National Novel Writing Month in January! Brandon and I were laughing about how strange it is to have NaNo in November when it seems the holiday season is just picking up and the sickness season is beginning and everyone is busy. And why on earth do they not have it in a more boring month, like, say, January or March or really almost any month in the beginning of the year?!

I was going to do it in December but realized I wanted to relax and enjoy my Christmas without the stress. So January it is. I'll try to keep a running word count on here. A little disappointed... or a lot.... that I didn't get the award screen and possibly even t-shirt from finishing in November.... but oh well. Anywho, hope it works in a month.

Ggggggggggggah!

I am wimping out. Big time.

I feel like I have some huge invisible wall standing between me and my ability to just open up my damn word document and write my NaNoWriMo novel. I have 4,000 words. I already started. Why can't I write any more?! Why the crap don't I believe I can do it?!?! I have half the story mapped out! What is wrong with me?!?!?!?!

Is it really that I am tired? Because I am, all the time, all year round. I can't remember the last time I regularly got enough sleep. That shouldn't stop me.

Is it that I am so starved for free time that I view even my recreational writing as work now?! Am I so socially isolated that the few hours of surfing the interwebs makes me feel more connected and when I don't get even that I feel completely locked inside my own head? Especially when my free time in spent in an even more introspective, self-contained, imaginary world???

I think..... yes, yes to some degree to all of this. And so many more stupid things getting in my way. I gotta do it. Even if I don't make the 50,000 word goal.

NaNoWriMo 2008

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I am starting to get really excited! Nation Novel Writing Month is coming up again this year and I am really gearing up!!!!!!!! I am really hoping to make the goal of 50,000 words this year! I know I can do it if I just stick with it. No quitting out of despair this year! lol.

I looked back at some of my novel info from last year and was shocked to find that I had made 30,000 words. It kinda gave me a kick in the pants, enabling me to realize that I can really make the word goal this time around. I have a couple of plans that will help me make the word count every day.

Oddly enough, I'm not sure I want to write the story that I have been outlining in prep for this year! I chose not to do this particular story for NaNo last year because I felt I wanted to really do it justice instead of banging out 50,000 words in the frantic and less skillful way that it necessary when trying to make your goal. And I had not yet figured out enough of the story by November 1st last year to really write about it.

This year I have been outliging, have a lot of great ideas, but am still unsure for a number of reasons. Maybe I will write something else that will come more easily to me? Something that I do not have to create an entire, rich universe from scratch? Something that I have less invested in, that I can butcher for word count and writing experience only???

Eh, we'll see. Regardless, I am psyched! Hopefully no one will get sick this year and Thanksgiving will be a casual affair! Wish me luck!!!!!